I've Been Changed !
I give honor to God, Bishop, God's Most Precious Jewel and everyone who’s reading this. First and foremost, I would like to say that I'm so glad and so grateful for God ordering my steps here to Chambers. God has placed me here to be under this divine teaching and leadership. If it had not been for God and my bishop on my side, I have no idea where I'd be today. When I first stepped foot in Chambers, I knew nothing about God. I was born and raised in Church but my mother forced me to go and I learned nothing. At the time, I didn't even believe in God at all. Here in Chambers, one of the many things I’ve learned is just because your body is in the church, doesn't mean that your mind is there. So yes, I was physically there but my mind was somewhere else. It was wandering. Wandering and wondering when service is going to end so I can hurry up and get out of those church clothes. Wondering what time we were going to leave so I can go see what’s going on in the world.
So there I was, a young girl with a mother trying so hard to raise me RIGHT and train her child in the way she should go, but yet still I wanted to surround myself around all the WRONG people. My mother wanted me to grow up in the lord. I guess she wanted me to be all “churchy” and become “fruitful” but instead I chose to lean to my OWN understanding and decided to go the other route. I chose to grow up in the world. I became a rotten tree baring bad fruits. I left the house and I backslid. I started drinking and became an alcoholic. Waking up drinking and going to bed drinking. I was smoking weed, cigarettes, popping Ecstasy pills and Mollies. I was bisexual, fornicating, shacking and having kids out of wedlock. I was a lost black girl until God found me. Back then I was worried about what time we were getting out of the church so I could be of the world, but all along I didn’t know that God was the time keeper. God was saving me from the world.
Another one of the many things I’ve learned in Chambers is that God is like a GPS. Though I may have taken a different route than the one he had laid out for me, he got me back on course. I learned through this process, God will allow you to experience things just so He can get you to where you need to be and get you to become the person He created you to be. That’s how AMAZING God is. God knows how to get your attention and I’m forever grateful that he got mine to get me where I am now. He ordered my steps to Chambers because he knew where I needed to be and who I needed to be under to get me right. God has blessed me to be here under this divine teaching and leadership. He blessed me with the best bishop and best intercessor. He is my spiritual father and my angel in the form of a man. If it wasn’t for God using my Bishop, I wouldn’t be here today or who I am today. Since I've been here in Chambers, MY WHOLE LIFE HAS CHANGED TREMENDOUSLY. Today, I won’t take anything for my journey now.
I should’ve been dead a long time ago but my God is a deliverer. When Jesus died on the cross he died for all of my sins too. By my faith, by the grace of God and my bishop's teachings, I’ve been born again. I’m no longer a rotten tree but now I am planting good seeds and baring good fruit. I’m striving to become even more fruitful. I may look the same, have the same face and live in the same building but I’ve changed tremendously. Look at me now! I went from Nani to Walking Deacon Nina. I am a Usher for the Lord. I once was lost but now I’m found! I once was blind but now I see! Now I can see all that God has done and is still doing in my life.
When I look back over my life and I start thinking things over, I can truly say that it was nobody but God and my bishop who has brought me through. He blessed me over and over again with his grace and mercy. Kept me in his favor. It was only by my faith in God and my bishop teachings, God took the desire for alcohol away. On the 26th of July, it would be 5 years free from alcohol. Who would’ve thought that I would be sober today?
Not only am I alcohol free but I am abstaining for all drug use. I am also preserving myself as I now know my body is a temple. God has brought me from a place to a much better place. I am now living my best life in Jesus and I’m glad about it. Thank you God and thank you bishop for being the vessel God used to get me to the place I am in now. No longer a lost black girl but a Walking Deacon striving to be all that I can be in Jesus name. I am praying daily for an overflow and I know by staying here in Chambers, where I recieved all my evidence, the blessings will flow! The devil is busy and powerful but he has no power over the God I serve. So I am not going nowhere! I am staying right here in Chambers because IT WORKS FOR ME!
May God add a blessing to the reading of these words !
Woman Of Strength!
I am a strong woman who raised two black men. In 2010 I lost my first born son to murder by my grandson, who also took his life after taking my sons life. That day I lost a part of me that can never be mended. Thank God and my bishop for saving my life that day. On that day I had deepened my relationship with God. He came and took hold of me and never let me go. When the Bible says, “God is always on time”, I found out, that is true. There was a transformation that happened to me that I can’t even explain. All I know is that I received so much strength and power to handle the loss of my son and still have the love for my grandson and ability to forgive him. The Devil thought he had me, but God stepped in! You see I know where my son and grandson are. They are in a better place where there is love and peace all around them. They are with the Father of all father’s. I’ve lost my husband, my son, my grandson, my mother in law and my mother. I became a woman of strength to show courage in the midst of my fears. I became a woman of strength to give the best of myself to everyone. I became a woman of strength to capitalize on God's blessings, to walk with God in grace, to have faith in my journey and to become strong in Christ. I would have never made it without the love of God and without the love of my Bishop. That’s why I am a woman of strength!
God Got My Back !
I give honor to God, My Anointed Bishop and God’s Most Precious Jewel.
First, I want to thank God for my new life in the Lord using his chosen vessel to introduce me to the good news gospel of Jesus Christ, giving me food from Heaven to save my soul. I am also thankful for the encouraging words from the man of God to stay strong even in the midst of persecution. I have been ostracized by those close to me because I decided to go another path, no longer hanging with the same crowd just to fit in. This decision didn’t sit well with my mother. She thought I was brainwashed in the church. Not realizing that God was cleansing me on the inside from my carnal mind and worldly ways. God was operating on me and I had to be set apart so he can use his healing power. He had to turn my life around so I could see my weak and wicked habits. Being around secular people hindered my spiritual growth and the purpose God had for me. One day my mother called me at work and gave me an ultimatum, either I leave the church or she’ll disown me. I told her that I wasn’t quitting the church. She said “Fine. I disown you” and slammed down the phone. I was so in shock that I couldn’t believe it at first. I said to myself, so be it. God got my back. A few minutes later, I called the late moderator of the deacon board, Deacon Elsie Oliver and told her what happened. She was surprised as well. Deacon Oliver knew how close my mother and I was. I didn’t speak to my mother for almost three months. I spoke to one of my cousins, who was saved. She told me “not to give in to the Devil. Let the Devil come crawling back to you.” My cousin said she’ll be praying for my strength. My mother eventually caved in. I came to my apartment after church, she was sitting on the sofa with my baby nephew. He was sick, so he couldn’t spend the weekend with her. His mother was coming to get him. After that night, we never spoke of that incident. A few years later, cancer returned to my mother’s body. The doctor said it was terminal. We spent our last Christmas together. Before she died, my mother asked if I was happy. I answered yes. She said “Good, I can go in peace now.”
On top of the world but in destruction. That was me. A boat load of friends. Thriving in school. Attending every party, get together and concert. Living the life. But yet still had a emptiness on the inside. Plastering a smile on my face but was broken on the inside. Surrounded by people but still felt void. Had what the world thought was everything , great family, more clothes & shoes than I could count but still in turmoil. Loosing a battle to my biggest enemy - the enemy inside of me. Overthinking , doubting and always questioning gods plan left me with tomorrow’s worries before today was even up. On the verge of a nervous breakdown.
I can’t believe that after only three years, my entire life has changed. I came into CMBC broken, lost and confused. Wanting to give up on life and everything in it. Not knowing whether I was coming or going but taking everything as it was thrown at me. I never thought in a million years I would be able to say that I no longer suffered from depression but this day I testify that I have been delivered. I can’t say the moment when it happened, I can’t say the exact time His word manifested but I do know that my Lord wouldn’t allow me to stay there.